Side 1 Lyrics.

1. Indestructible

brick by brick, pane by pane
raise the housing for students inlaid
started with a flicker
and grew into a flame
a culture so emboldened
put a fear into that fame

all they know, a place called home
in the heart of darkness
was a light hard as stone
the place was safer
while things got harder
they all tried
to get a little bit farther

indestructible, indestructible
concrete was poured
and the soul was formed
we made something out of nothing
collective swarm on us no hold

from early morning
to late into the night
souls pressed together
pushing deep into that night

all they know was a place called home
they all tried, they all tried.

indestructible, indestructible
concrete was poured
and the soul was formed
we made something out of nothing
collective swarm on us no hold

misfits who never knew
what friends could mean
people they embraced
in their true being

[guitar solo]

indestructible, indestructible
concrete was poured
and the soul was formed
we made something out of nothing
collective swarm on us no hold

2. In My Soul

i'm addicted to a certain kind of day
it's scaring me, will i always be this way?

in my soul i know a change is gonna come
what luck, aw shucks, it's already noon
in my soul i know it's why i'm feeling blue
what luck, aw shucks, it's ending all too soon

my headache's coming on
and my blood boiling up
the body's rotting in the grave
but this life ain't over yet

in my soul i know a change is gonna come
what luck, aw shucks, it's already noon
in my soul i know it's cuz i'm feeling blue
what luck, aw shucks, it's ending all too soon

another day, another way
sleeping in a new place
counting til i'm driving home
and trying to find my new grace

in my soul i know a change is gonna come
what luck, aw shucks, it's already noon
in my soul i know it's why i'm feeling blue
what luck, aw shucks, it's ending all too soon

my thoughts are that
of an old man out at sea
looking down, so caring and so free
he won't be

in my soul i know a change is gonna come
what luck, aw shucks, it's already noon
in my soul i know it's why i'm feeling blue
what luck, aw shucks.

in my soul i know a change is comin' soon
what luck, aw shucks, it's already noon
in my soul i know it's why i'm feeling blue
what luck, aw shucks, it's ending all too soon!

3. Beautiful Summer

i hear you're having a beautiful summer
with all your beautiful friends
spreadin' tales of your beautiful lovers
and how they get you there

oh yes, it seems so perfect
from the outside looking in
oh, it seems uncertain
what's real and what's pretend

beautiful summer
beautiful summer
beautiful summer

i know you're having a beautiful summer
you tell me everyday
they pry and pry, those curious minds
guess that's the price you pay

you made the grass look greener
you can see it in their eyes
but who will cross the line
to take a peek on the other side?

beautiful summer
beautiful summer
beautiful summer

[organ solo]

they pull the string, it breaks the spell
and you know it's time to go
you pack your bags, escape this hell
and call the curtains on the show
call the curtains on the show

i hope you're having a beautiful summer
somehow, somewhere
far away from the fame and the glory
where no-one can sit and stare

beautiful summer [repeat to fade out]

4. Think About You?

backwoods and faded dreams
old times getting older it seems
why ain't you the same to me
the past isn't past to thee
and i go back to the tree
but you ain't there for me
i go searching about
broke glass all abound
memories you said to me
swing back and come home
'fore I'll know
that you'll be there for me

as dark turns into day
i find my mind's ablaze a million miles away
will i be thinking 'bout you?
as day turns into night
and the sun hides so all the stars fade into view
will i still think about you?

i mind throughout the day
i'll be thinking, still thinking
about my AAA
a battery refills me
i'll be moving, still moving
moving on
passing cars and passing days
a million holidays gone away
history class has been teaching me
about my life that's meant to be
i mind throughout the day
i'll be thinking, still thinking
about my AAA

as dark turns into day
i find my mind's ablaze a million miles away
will i be thinking 'bout you?
as day turns into night
and the sun hides so all the stars fade into view
will i still think about you?

[harmonica solo]

everybody needs some distraction
everybody needs a second view
everybody's trying to second guess you
like they're meant to, oh yeah

holding myself against the moon
i sing of love, oh once, so true

as dark turns into day
i find my mind's ablaze a million miles away
will i be thinking 'bout you?
as day turns into night
and the sun hides so all the stars fade into view
will i still think about you?

i think you said you weren't listening
but i wasn't listening to you
(will i be thinking 'bout you)
i think you think i wasn't meaning it
i wasn't meaning it, it's true
(will i be thinking 'bout you)
i think you said you weren't listening
but i wasn't listening to you
(will i be thinking 'bout you)
i think you think i wasn't meaning it
i wasn't meaning it, it's true
(will i be thinking 'bout you)

5. Another Sleepless Night

despite my best efforts
it's another sleepless night
you said everything was going to be alright

armed with best laid plans
as prepared as we could be
only god herself could see
when the seams start falling apart
it's unraveled, it's undone
and we all know what's to come

despite my best efforts
it's another sleepless night
you said everything was going to be alright
to my great displeasure
we've gone down this road once more
so i'll see you in the morning

trying hard to make things right
under these fluorescent lights
call it "conquering the night"
every moment passing by
nothing brings us any closer
to getting it right

go ahead and call it a night
i can see the betrayal in your eyes
the beauty of sunrise
is tempered by my decline

so it's come to this again
now it's time to flip the switch
emergency reserve
a second wind
it's time to stop
screwing around
but i want you to know
now i want you to know

that now you've found me
i'm in my element
and yes you've found me
i'm in my element

[guitar solo]

you're racked with indecision
facing stubborn friction
we can be friends when the sun comes out
unsustainable condition
time to make the last incision
but i want you to know
now i want you to know

that now you've found me
i'm in my element
and yes you've found me
i'm in my element
but now you've found me
i'm in my element
i'm in my element, in my element, in my

[guitar solo]

Side 2 Lyrics.

6. Abstract Art

passing time 'til another day's gone
but it won't get me down
gonna go live it my way

abstract art is hanging on the wall
won't stop for anything
pushing through 'til another day
a new goal in my way

freedom, freedom
freedom, freedom
beautiful world, beautiful cold
who knows what i'll see myself
it's abstract art
traveling down this freeway of life
breaking down the doors, & yelling i'm home

what's that hanging on the wall
it's abstract art in the hall
but i know

it's not for me
know that i'm gonna be free

anything goes, it ebbs and it flows
it breaks and it bows, it gets home

what's that hanging on the wall
it's abstract art

7. Never Too Late

molten steel pours my form
taking free life away
ask yourself where you're born
it's all the same
a soul a ghost
a woman so brave
she lights up his world
she makes him feel brave

it's never too late
it's never too late
you said to me
we'd always be

the light creative kid
burnt a little hole
it is he our son
who brightens up their world
and the creative man
burns up it all
he our son
who brightens up their world
so he can have some fun

it's never too late
it's never too late
to this i'll agree
a better man, wait and see

[guitar solo]

woe is a thing to chase
when i've turned to dust
never penned letters
to those who you once just loved

those once stopped,
they're never determined
once called their end
she was the one
she was the one to me

it's never too late
it's never too late
she said to me
you'll always be

it's never too late
it's never too late
you'd say i agree
a better man, wait and see

8. Jabberwocky

information breakdown
it's never the same
20 different sources
all over the place

"everything is dangerous.
step into my rabbit hole,
a bunker for the end of the world."

it's a hard thing to gain
my trust, in this world
your tribe, my tribe
give it all away

all those open channels
the bands we see are closing
all those closing channels
width a single signal

"what are you doing standing there?
we'll have a grand old time!
everybody's waiting on you
everybody's waiting on you now!"

i'm right and i'm wrong and i might be so wrong
i'm right and i'm wrong and i might be so right
when is the world gonna come back around
when is the world gonna come back down
when will we all just get along
when will we all just get along
oh no

the cards we play
what do they mean
the words they say
what do they mean

"no need to worry
we'll teach you everything we know
aren't you glad this madness
has such a pretty bow?"

they're insecure
and it allures
i'm controversial
reactionarial

i might be naive
i might be naive
but that's the world
i want to live in

i might be naive
i might be naive
but that's the world
i want to live in

i'm right and i'm wrong and i might be so wrong
i'm right and i'm wrong and i might be so right
when is the world gonna come back around
when is the world gonna come back down
when will we all just get along
when will we all just get along

"this is your destiny.
you were meant to be here.
don't disappoint me now.
you were born to do this."

crawling out
(come on up and see the light)
i see the light
is it too late to turn back now
is it too late to turn back now
is it too late to turn back now
is it too late to turn back now

(Attention passengers:
The next Red Line train to Alewife
is now approaching.)

9. Richard Russell

i'm a man in crisis
i got a few screws loose
and i never really knew until today
the boys up in the tower
they wanna get me on the ground
i'd rather see what this bad boy can do

and i don't think that i'll be coming down tonight
cuz i've seen it all before
and i think i know where this is going
i don't think that you'll be seeing me again
but you should come and see me now, my friend

and it feels so good
flying high above the sound
and i know you would
if you spent every day doing the same old thing

i don't think that i'll be coming down tonight
cuz i've seen it all before
and i think i know where this is going
i don't think that you'll be seeing me again
but you should come and see me now, my friend

[guitar solo]

i'm a man in crisis
to those of you i love
i'm sorry that i let you down

i don't think that i'll be coming down tonight
cuz i've seen it all before
and i think i know where this is going
i don't think that you'll be seeing me again
yeah i think this is the end.

10. Life After

(Attention passengers:
The next Red Line train to Alewife
is now arriving.)

you will see me again in that old place
touch me again in that old way
i'm feeling you now on your grave
i'm alone this time, please stay

love me, the world is full of beauty
and crashing down dreams into me
the end of the road is there
attempts to try so sincere
my life is in your hands

got to find a way to move on
my own light, my right to life
must break this chain
that holds me down
i've left those days behind me

passing seasons change
i will not move
my head's on tight
i'm alright with this tune
alright with this tune

as subways trains pass
it's all a blur
as they go past
my life after
my life after

making life worth living
and finding art worth keeping
having friends worth seeing
it's alright

make this life worth living
(life worth living)
find art worth keeping
(art worth keeping)
have friends worth seeing
(friends worth seeing)
it's alright
(alright)

give me peace
give me tranquility
i'm sorry
i'll make it up this time
i'll make it, i'll make it up this time
this time

in the darkness, nothing changes
it's sinister evil
those people smile, not smiling at me
as we jump into the sea

turn the lights out
grab a bat now
i swing it hard and shout
it's not working

(this will pass) i don't know how
(this will pass) i don't want it to

make this life worth living
find art worth keeping
have friends worth seeing
it's alright

give me peace
give me tranquility
i'm sorry
i'll make it up this time
i'll make it, i'll make it up this time
i'll make it, i'll make it
i'll make it up this time

(one final thing i have to do
and then i'll be free of the past)

Credits.

FRED DESK is...

hector iglesias - guitars, synth (7), vocals (10), front cover design, hidden track
jonathan ledet - bass
hadrian merced - fake drums, synths (3, 6, 7), vocals (4, 5, 10), field recording (8, 10), mixing, mastering, back cover design, this page
jacob miske - vocals (all but 5), harmonica (4), field recording (10)

OTHER CONTRIBUTORS:

barış ekim - songwriting (7)
karina hinojosa - back cover photo
amman woldegebriel - front cover photo

the songs on this album were written by FRED DESK (except "never too late", written by FRED DESK and barış ekim) between october 2018 and march 2022.

this album was recorded between december 2020 and february 2023 in various homes and at the record co. in boston, massachusetts.